Apparently I was wrong in thinking we were trapped at Sinai. In speaking with Dr. Standard after we left the hospital it turns out he expected Nick to stay till Friday or Saturday. If I had know that I would not have said that we wanted to leave so fast. Talking with him after surgery is sometimes brief and it is hard for me to keep track of all he has said. I heard it went great and the rest was a blur. In any case it was OK that we left because Nick was doing fine on oral pain meds but it was really hard to get to the point of being able to leave.
So it was a communication error. Communication errors are so common but I also feel like I lost my focus a little. I use to keep better track of things. I use to ask more questions. I do trust Dr. Standard’s team but Nick’s situation is unique and was not like the other surgeries, getting the ex fix, removal, eight plate insertion, super knee, in which I bet a lot of things are the same from patient to patient.
We had a rough time with Nick’s drain removal and that was probably in the realm of communication issues too. I did not like the way Nick was spoken to. In fact I was upset enough that I could not say anything for fear I would cry. I just focused on Nick and trying to calm him. When someone seems to be working against you in the calming department that is not easy an easy task. Drain removal usually isn’t a huge painful drama but it was. I know upsetting him couldn’t have been intentional but thats how it felt at the time.
After the drain and iv removal came the walking. I wanted to scream. I hated myself for pushing him. I try to be helpful and not resist letting the hospital staff do what they need to do if it is what Nick needs but then to hear it wasn’t was really hard. I know guilt is a waste of time at this point but I hate that I let Nick suffer. He was so upset he was screaming and then he had a terrible headache afterward from all the stress. He is still not walking but he does not need to be. He can’t weight bear for a while on his right leg anyway. I’ve talked to Dr. Standard about this discharge day and I know he will address the things that can be addressed but I still feel like it’s on me to be on top of it all. Next time I will simply ask “Is this what Dr. Standard said Nick needs, or needs to do?” Eleven surgeries later I would have thought speaking up would be easy but none of this is easy.
One small issue we have now is a small pimple near one of the incisions. I cant say for sure it is a pimple but it looks like one with a white center. It’s pretty small and does not hurt so our instructions have been to wash it and cover it and if the pain increases start and antibiotic. We don’t have an antibiotic to start but we’ll have to call if we need it. It is a really tiny thing. I don’t like having it covered because then I cant see if it has changed. I worry that what looks like a tiny bit of pus inside will get inside the incision and cause a serious infection. After all Nick has been though that would be too much.
I guess it is already too much. Broken leg and broken arm are a bad combination. Nick is upset and I don’t blame him. He’s really not getting to have a summer. He cant run or even walk outside right now. He can’t swim!!! What is summer with out swimming. I’ll tell you what summer is without swimming. It’s sitting in your house in the air conditioning because it is too darn hot to do anything else outside. One positive point I had to make was the Nick’s summer isnt over when school starts like every other kid. Our summer can keep going because we’ll be homeschooling! I will find an indoor pool if Nick wants to make up for lost swim time.
So while I preach all the time that Nick lives his life as he wants without limitations that is currently not the case but in a few weeks it will be over. Well maybe more than a few but still when this is done Nick will have his long straight leg and his arm will be back to normal. Interestingly this cast is itching Nick a lot less than the other one did. Please pray to whatever god you believe in that Nick will be able to get a short waterproof cast on August 6th when we go back to the RIAO. If he does we will have no trouble swimming on vacation at the end of August. We will cram so much fun into that one week! Glenbrook (our annual family vacation) is our chance to redeem our summer. Here’s hoping we can!